After reading Agnes Martin once gave up painting because of an 'overdeveloped sense of responsibility.' I thought I would briefly write about my own experience of responsibility and OCD. Each individual’s experience of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is different. I am only writing here about my own experience and not as a guide for anyone else. Please seek help from trained medical professionals if you are concerned about your own mental health or you suffer with OCD. Like many sufferers of OCD I have an inflated sense of responsibility and often believe things are riskier than they are.
After this there were several more events which really frightened me and which I blamed myself for, although they were not my fault. I got to the point a few years ago where I looked at my life through a 'health and safety - just in case' filter and this is the point where I began to believe that things are riskier than they really are. Later I started editing my speech in my head before I spoke to make sure I was not going to upset someone with what I said. Then stopping photography because I needed to stay 'on guard'.
My compulsions in all such scenarios are to repeatedly check, clean and seek reassurance. Agnes Martin maintained her mental health issues where nothing to do with her art. My experiments are not about OCD. I am trying to keep on with this project because I am enjoying it; and as a stand against OCD, with the nagging doubts it lobs into my mind trying to stop me.
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